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well it's just an open up stupid diary.
i believe u will find
a lot of grammatical errors lol,
some dramas that surround my life,
and of course,
a lot of ordinary stories from
an ordinary teenager kid.
originally designed by me.
all contents are fully copyright
Mela @2008.
Mela. all rights reserved.

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just wanna say this
what i know
i'm blessed
this i promise you
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hugging you
nothing is going to change
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Thursday, April 23, 2009


"wave... please wash away the pain,
wash away the fear, wash away the shame,

wash away the love, wash away the heart..."

I'm a poet.
I understand the power of words.

and that hurt...

tomorrow's the final.
in pain today. twice =(

wish me all the besstttt

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Sunday, April 19, 2009


yes. need hard work.
for tomorrows ahead.
and pray.

the picture says it all.
to keep them in balance, i'm doing both.

11 hours to go.
i know i can.

ps: meeting him today was perfectly being a trigger for me to study harder. damn.
in the end, nothing beats a first second love easily lol.

"love, smiling wont make it any better,
you still have my heart locked there.
hate you.
and i love you."

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Monday, April 13, 2009

loving life

ain't life beautiful?'s not enough just to realize
that life is amazing
take what gandhi said:
Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.
then, the task to love life is fulfilled.

may this easter brings me more hope and love.
i mean, i prepared this easter at church as busy as the president,
but the way i reacted to people i hate supposed to be kind and grateful peacefully to (i'm a hater >.<) was no difference with how i treated them before this meaningful week where you should forgive each other and start a new white page with sincere smile.

so i need love. to love others more.

anyway, this holiday i went through a lot. not burdens, but joys. with s.
me and my mom got a lot on our accidental quality time.
she shared her life stories that made me go wow, she's an ordinary human being, not a superwoman like i always thought her was.

yeah, that's her.
the bonding went tighter and will go on tighter until forever :]

love my mom. so much.

so,, post about my own fantasy should be pending :p
cant find enough time to think
national exam in 7 days.
meanss 24/7 studying.

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Sunday, April 5, 2009


hey peopleeeeeeeeeeeee
i'm a bad bad blogger :{
abandoning this baby and just plodding with my too-many-fcking-dramas life

these few mad weeks (since i stopped blogging, exactly)
have been insanely ohmygosh-ish tiring.
done some pleonastic final exams, studied like there were no tomorrows.
i dont want to brag about it...
yeah, like there are something to be brag about exams.
just hearing the word makes goosebumps all over moi.

at least i passed all my tryouts. thank You.

so, i believe this easter holiday i wont be as busy as last year because with the rescheduling and regeneration thing. whatever.
this duty's reduction of mine is great.
cause i dont know how long I can keep up with my doubling part,
being saint at church and busy busy busy with all-of-those,
and being a jerk-off human being at school where I swear and smile at the same time.
hey, we're all hypocrite, aren't we? ;]

well, i will update soon. i promise.
Please don't kill me if i say i'm too lazy to update :p
besides, this blog only has few followers.
no one's capable to kill haha...
i'm thinking of doing some publication for this baby
and editing the layout a lil bit.
i dont realize that when i was to busy studying (yeah, right) thania is making $$$ with her blog!! cool thing, darl~~lol

next post: my own fantasy

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