"time"

this 4 letters word makes me think so much these days.
why does time important?

i know everything has to be done within a certain period of time.
everything needs time.
again, everything.

examples.
you go to college and hoping you'll finish it in 4 years.
you eat, for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
you try to finish your work by the time limit or deadline.
you sleep, you count it by hours or minutes.

even sometimes,
people count unseen things with time.
how many years you've been living at your current house that you wanted to settle up?
or how many times you've watched that movie that you finally understood the storyline?
how often do you go swimming that you feel you're keeping fit?
how long have you known her that you know she's not good to be friends with?
do you regularly hang out with your friends that you can call them best friends?
how long you've known her that you can say she's your best friends?
do you spend more of time with your friends or lover?

sometimes the thing about time bugs me a lot.
why?
because I'm too selfish.
I realize that I wanna spend time with certain person (read: lover)
more than with other people.
I want to have all the time in the world in my hands
and just spend my time with the guy I believe will be holding onto me until "that" day.

I dont see why I have to give an exact reason,
but I believe this passionate feeling isnt just for someone melancholic like me.
it's for everyone who is currently in love.
for real.

I feel
I always run out of time,
or think that I need more time.
And I am willing to give all of my time for him.

whether this post is too mellow or not,
I hope you understand.

time does not stand for those who cant appreciate it.
and I'm aware that I havent appreciated time well.
because I love this selfishness of mine about time.
I love to steal time even just a minute, to be together with him.
and bail out from my friends.
I dont know if it's good or not in others' eyes.
but for me, it's good.
yes, i'm sorry i'm bad.
but it's still good for me.

"Don't let the noise of others opinions drown out your inner voice"
-Steve Jobs

This quote depicts me well.
I really dont want to change what is true for me, just for the pleasure of others.
I can make my own decisions.
I'm mature enough to know what's not and what's it.
I'm addicted, I'm head over heels, and I'm deeply falling in.

I can appreciate time,
whenever I'm with you.
:)


"The most valuable commodity is time"
-Gordon Gekko, Wallstreet: Money Never Sleeps

One more saying about time I found in weheartit , dont know whose (unknown):
"Time will not sleep. It will not slow down and it will not stop.
When time feels like running out, you have all the time in the world.
You can watch the clock hoping that
the minute hand will come to a stop, but it's not going to.
It's never going to.
You can count the seconds until it's a new day or a new month or a new year,
but you'll be counting forever.
You can count the moment until we see each other again,
but it will never be the same.
It'll never be the same."

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that's why, i just simply want to spend more time with you.
is it a sin?