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well it's just an open up stupid diary.
i believe u will find
a lot of grammatical errors lol,
some dramas that surround my life,
and of course,
a lot of ordinary stories from
an ordinary teenager kid.
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Mela @2008.
Mela. all rights reserved.

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just wanna say this
what i know
i'm blessed
this i promise you
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hugging you
nothing is going to change
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Friday, October 31, 2008

s.4 new blog

yesss, people....

i just made the account and designed the blog a little.
gave it a banner and a posts' body-top...

but i gave up at that point, so confused what to do next.
i was too afraid, thinking "what if my classmates dont like it?
what should i do? redo it?"

too afraid...

but anyway, please check it out:
i havent done anything else, it's still in bizarre mode

also check out the other blogs that i've grafted on the link's box
they're incredibly amazing.
especially House of Freaky Fivers
(a little promotion for my best friend :])

i need to get some sleep, for my eyes -_-""
*nighty nite*

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Wednesday, October 29, 2008


"He left everlasting imprints in my heart and never-fading reflection in my mind."

"And what I really feel, my eyes won't let me hide."

"Now I know, the best way to make my dreams come true is to wake up."

-Paul Valery-

how am i supposed 2 do that...?

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i'm blessed


communication science.

through the special track (is it correct?)
---sorry i'm a bit lack of english -_-"

thanks God.

the 1st thing i wanted to do actually:
tell him this good news
but since this week is not a good time for him
i'm gonna delay it until next week :p

*i'm too caring*


Monday, October 27, 2008

-a simple message-

his simple message

cheers up my whole day.

cant walk anywhere without smiling.


Saturday, October 25, 2008

the poet is dull-witted

She tried to hold her eyes to tear
But her heart already cried
She knew thinking of him
She'd never be done
She saw his eyes
and got lost in its depth
Feeling never better
when it was her worst
No poet like her
Trying to seduce the words
when they were unspoken
Trying to cut the imagination
when it was real
When would she be done?
She was there
He was there
No uttered words the poet spoke
She pens her words now
Putting her tears
on the place she dwells
But again
the words are torn
by the broken tears
No uttered words the poet speaks
Only waiting
until the sweet dream
takes her away


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Thursday, October 23, 2008

new twilight movie poster

nothing will be the same"

wew... that's fcking crazy.
rob pattinson really DOES look like a vampire.
look at his eyes.
u'll be lost in its depth... :]

anyway... can't wait for the movie, still counting down.

29 days left to november 21st xDDDD

~twilight addict~

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a stupidity award for me by me -_-"

Yes... I suck bad today.

Fck it.

The fact of the reason:
i did something without even thought about it.
I just typed it down, and sent it.
and kazaamm, just like that. he went away.

he hates me.
he thinks i'm too aggressive stupid.
and i think he's too naive.

why did i do that?
ughh *banging my head on the wall*

regret always comes late T__T

meLaa = stupid-ass

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008


though i'm obsessed
but u're not my obsession
though i'm addicted
but u're not my addiction
though i'm hypnotized
but u're not my illusions
some times enthusiastic
the others pessimistic
trying to hold while letting go
one piece of puzzle
that i've been longing
both agitated and relieved
u complicate my days
with these tears
and silly smiles
out of the blues
between the choices
though i love u
but u're not my love
it's unspoken....


Tuesday, October 21, 2008


today... i found out something that smashed my heart at the clock beat
i was talking to some of my friends in the car
and a minute later,
we passed in front of his house...
*damn, i feel like a pure stalker*
i wrote down his car's license plat and went on
*yes, i know, i'm disgusting -___-"*

after that we told stories each other and i just knew that one of my friend in the car was a friend of his.
and she had her 17th birthday a few months ago, but i couldn't make it at that time, cuz of my stomach
*a structural disease in my colon, fck it*

she INVITED him. and he CAME.
and i didnt.

what could be worse besides knowing these things happen again and again?
he's always there, at the right place, but at the wrong time.
i think it's the ten times something like this happens again

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what was he thinking when i said that?

i'm fcking embarrassed



mood : miserable
song of my day : afgan-my confession

When love has come, but soon is gone...
It begs the question
Was it there?

The love was just a figment
Something we could ponder
But never express

Could love be the healing?
Healing from the hatred
The hatred from my tears
We needed this to release the stain

Willingly to be stainless
But the love is still clinging in my eyes

Though i tried to forget u
But my heart remembers u faster than my mind

Love... Is it a sin?

Trying to forget someone you love, especially if that someone u have been longing for years, is like trying to remember someone you never knew...

my heart ached many times, but the feeling wont fade away.

I hope my sadness will fly away on the wings of time.

But what if it's happening again?
He came. he left.

the next month. he came. he left.

the next 3 months. he came. he left.

Would my heart be fine?
The cracks made empty spaces with nothing to fill except your illusions...

I know that meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control....

the question i hold within the temples of time all these full moons...
would u be mine?

*still stuck in my throat*

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twilight review : final book ^^

Breaking Dawn

Written by: Stephenie Meyer

Cant think of another word bout it.
Seru banget mbaca buku ke 4, menggila sendiri wkt baca. Triak sana sini, gara2 emosinya Bella krasa banget. Dr awal mreka nikah, sampe bulan madu, n insiden "hamil". Ehhhh taw2 sudut pandangnya ganti jd Jacob. Keterlibatan Jacob d sni jd poin penting, krn dia menyaksikan semuanya dgn detail. Seru juga biarpun penceritanya bkn Bella.
It drives me nuts!!
Sampe2 baca nonstop, 2x baca lsng slese. Gak puas nichh, pengen baca trus.
Tp yg pentink. hepi ending... Congrats bwat Edward n Bella yg akhirnya bs mngatasi batas vampir dan manusia dgn menjdkannya satu garis lurus, biarpun anaknya msh agak mlencong.
Harapanku skarang::
1. Midnight Sun!!!!! Aku pengen cepet2 baca. Udah baca sih, tp bajakannya (hehe...), br 12 chapters. Gejolak prasaannya Edward lebi seru drpd Bella!! Soalnya dcritain pergumulannya antara maw mencintai, melindungi, memangsa, n membunuh Bella wkwk
2. Moga2 someday nanti, Stephenie Meyer buwat novel ttg Renesmee n Jacob!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PAsti TOP.
3. Maw mulai baca The Host-Stephenie Meyer jugak, ttg alien kyknya :]

~still, twilight addict~


Twilight review : book 3 ^^


Written by: Stephenie Meyer

The 3rd book of Twilight series.
"you're in every thought i have. I don't need reminders."
This book rocks. Once again, Bella was faced between a vampire for love of her life and a werewolf which she recently realized she fell in love with too.
The struggling in her heart with the reality seemed so... hard. But at the end she stuck to the vampire. Yeah, like i could
overall, Stephenie gives an amazing book to read (again).
I'm currently reading the 4th book.
ps: the picture is the original cover of eclipse, cause the indonesian version hasn't been published yet. so i read the 3rd and 4th book by downloading it at ebook :]
please please please read it.

~twilight addicted~


twilight review : book 2^^

New Moon

Written by: Stephenie Meyer

Dear Stephenie : AGAIN. superb. flawless.
feel the tension as Bella's adrenaline went up and down like a roller coaster, when they met the volturi, when edward left Bella's life in a blink of an eye, when Jacob Black healed her wound from being abandoned by her soulmate, when she found out that her "best friend" was no ordinary friend. OMG so much to pursue.
The choice between Edward and Jacob.
Between a vampire and a werewolf.
Between a bloodsucker and a killer dog.
who would she choose?
read it.
You MUST read it.

~twilight addicted~


twilight review : book 1 ^^


Written by: Stephenie Meyer


"The forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest..."
Z-O-M-G. This book is freaking awesome!! Geez..
Okay, so Twilight adalah buku pertama dari Twilight Saga karangan Stephenie Meyer. Dengan tema percintaan yang tak "normal", buku ini TERLALU menarik untuk tidak dicermati per halamannya dengan senyuman, desahan, teriakan, dan kekaguman akan imajinasi sang penulis yang bisa membawa kita tenggelam dalam percintaan antara Edward dan Bella dalam novel ini.
And then the story goes...
Ketika ibunya menikah lagi, Bella Swan pindah ke kota kecil Forks bersama ayahnya, seorang Kepala Kepolisian. Tanpa sadar bahwa takdir telah sengaja mempertemukan mereka, Bella jatuh cinta pada Edward Cullen, seorang vampir. Perasaan yang begitu bergejolak bahkan tak bisa mengiris kenyataan bahwa percintaan yang dihadapinya adalah percintaan terlarang. Ikatan keduanya tak bisa dihancurkan hanya dengan realita yang menyakitkan itu.
"I may not be human, but I am a man..."
Buku ini menceritakan bagaimana mereka memperjuangkan cinta mereka yang bukan hanya sekedar penjara nafsu yang bisa dibuka dengan kunci akal sehat, namun penjara ini ABADI.
Seakan menghadapi dilema, tapi keputusan yang telah ditelan oleh Bella takkan menggoyahkan cintanya pada Edward : "If you stay, I don't need heaven...."
Ohhh... Membaca buku ini tak diragukan lagi ketidakmasukakalannya, kemistisannya, keanehan seorang Bella yang selalu menjadi magnet bahaya, and... it's an addiction :D
Filmnya bakal dirilis tanggal 21 November 2008.
The casts : Kristen Stewart (Bella) and Robert Pattinson (Edward)

*sorry i wrote it in indonesian, cuz i took it from my friendster's books review, lol. too lazy to make another in english ^^*

~twilight addicted~


Twilight final trailer

i've downloaded the final trailer of twilight movie :]]]
u can check out at Trailer Park
yayy yayy
the movie will be out at nov 21st
i hope in indonesia too T__________T

robert and kristen are so incredibly amazing
"u r my life now..."

awww... so sweet :]

u dont know bout twilight?
i'll post the review (by me :p) in the next post.

please READ the book.
u'll be blown away by that fcking vampire's romanticism 'n his perfection from all aspects
(when i say all, it's ALL :])

~~twilight addicted~~


Thursday, October 9, 2008

i'm new :]

Just wanna say hi. to all.

Please DO read my blog.

Will update soon.