Sunday, July 5, 2009

missing person. kind of...

my my...
i feel like a missing person person these days.
and it's because my own will that i was hiding from the world.

I've abandoned my best companions; cell phone, blog, facebook, etc.
I don't do much when I was online.
I turned off my cell phone for days.
I never felt like posting anything, while there's a thousand stories I could spill here.

why oh, why...

anyway...now I'm back. under these circumstances:

*officially graduated from high school
*got first rank in my class and 7th in parallel (thank You, Jesusss)
the most rightfully prideful moment in my life to make my mom smiled ear to ear.
*Going to college. soon. (in 7 days, exactly, for the orientation)
*Going to board (like dorm or something. don't know the word -_-") this week, only for a month.
*mourning for MJ (my mom and I are huge fans of him)
*still mourning: my mom and I re-read his biography book that we bought a couple of years ago, never turning off CNN or BBC World just to know all the updates, and watch various tributes for him, which are aired in infinite channels -___-" yeah...

but it's a pity, though, that he's passed away so soon.
when I first heard the news, I cried and called my mom straightaway.
maybe God's thinking, "You're feeling such excruciating pain in your life. I should just leave you broken instead of suffering all over again. It's your time. "
anyway... may Michael Jackson rest in peace.


by the way, I made a huge mistake yesterday. I think I got my mom's heart ached because of what I said to her.
I cried in front of her, regretting my rebellious behavior, whereas I know I shouldn't be saying that!! Damn it.

well, I know, no regrets, no turning back, peeps.


So... News flash. I learned a lot within my silence moment.
first. part of loving someone is the knowing that you must let them go eventually. And if they come back, it’s meant to be. conclusion: I don't care about him anymore.
second. For all of you, who's raised by a single mother: give the lady a break. She's doing what she can the best. Don't put too much burden on her back. Take a half of it, and think what's hard for her, throw it afterward with all of your effort.
third. Even though I was disappointed. I'm glad, almost grateful to God for fulfilling my wish, which my mom can't fulfill, at least in my dream.
fourth. grow up. there's still a lot more to learn.

I'll end this post with pure compliment, dear my mom :D

Yes. a mother's love is always true.

I need to prepare my stuff for moving this Friday.
thinking a lot about college's life. kind of afraid.
Well, that’s the plan for now, and let’s just see how God works it all out in the end.
lol


won't be hiding anymore :)

Labels: college, life, love, miracle, MJ, mom, report card

by mELaa o.O~ at 8:56 PM :)