i said that things became much much better.
I lied.

things not going right these last few weeks.
i don't want to say that I have too many problem, because I'm actually too young to get frantic.
but yes, the wrath is already at the butt end of my line of sanity.

I won't give specific explanation about this sentiment.
but to wrap it up,
the state of affairs in my family haven't gone fair well, lately.

first of all, my older brother is being a betch.
second of all, I think I'm being a betch at campus, almost all the time, and I come home like everything's going fine. so I'm still a betch at home.
third of all... I can't say. but it's a matter of our economical state :(
what should I do to help my mom?
fourth of all, i need to forget him, and i know it's tough easy. so stupid.
fifth of all, i gotta stop being a pain-on-the-ass for my friends. since my double-faced personality takes a big dominant part in this friendship, if that's what you call it.
the last one, I need to pray MORE :(

i always put upright face and swear to make things right with the way i smile.
but reality bites.



aha! wiser people always full of doubts.
with us having problems or non-confident characters
we may tell ourselves that those effing shits make our maturing issues being cooked-well,
then slap your face.
i know, reality still bites,
but at least the last thing we know if we just live by the rules we live by,
we'll survive.